woensdag 18 mei 2011

Lie awake in bed at night and think about your life....

With the start of writing this blog, I have no idea about what would be a good title for it.
Maybe I'll think of something during writing or atleast I hope so :p.
The last few days I've been thinking again about what is called my "future". I didn't go to college this year because of money issues (or well better said I would've caused them). But you all know that :).
Anyway I realised last week, more than I did before, that a sales job is good, as something temporary, but it's definatly not my life calling. I have loads of respect for the people that see themselves working in a shop all day and that untill they retire. But that's just no life for me.
I'm someone who can hardly stand a routine, let alone I would have the same 9-5 day over and over and over and over again. I gently pass it to those who love it.
Anyway I atleast want a Bachelor and even if possible a Master degree. I know I'm smart (and that's not ment arrogant, I haven't had my IQ tested, so I'm not going to see I'm smarter than anyone else, but a fact is that I learn pretty easily and that I have this kind of wrong connection in my brain that they refer to as a photographical memory.) and so I know I could atleast get that Bachelor degree if I want it.
Only the thing is ;; as what?
One thing is sure it has to do something with the audiovisual stuff. I just feel alive when I'm near a set, a camera, moving images or sound. But that narrows my choice down from a billion things to a million things (well figurativly speaking). And on top of that I don't want to give up a job completely because I also want to move forward with my boyfriend.
I've also been thinking to apply for a flightattendant job, but for the Belgian companies your french needs to be very good, let it just be that language that I can't get mastered. I just want to see the world, learn stuff, get some "life experience" (literarly translated from how we say it in Flemish/Dutch so I don't know if this is a correct english term).
One of the current educations that really appeal to me, but I know I probably won't be able to do alot with it afterwards is the shortened Bachelor Writing at Rits in Brussels.
You have to hand in a very though application assignment and if you're accepted you get 3 years of Bachelor studing all in one year.
I love writing, I always did but I'm realistic, the chance to become an actual screenwriter is very very little, especially here in Belgium and anyway they have alot of issues so far, a few years back they even striked Hollywood for a few days because they have so little work.
But over here you get more chances if you can say I'm a Bachelor, no matter what kind of Bachelor Degree you have, recruiters automaticly will be more interested in you than in someone who has just finished High School.
I hate it that I can't choose, not only in this matter, but also in many other things. And I should change that but I think too much , way too much :(

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